Time

For this week’s blog, I have no specific topic or direction. I’m just going to start writing and see what appears on the paper.

Truth be told, this hasn’t been a good week. We’ve been very busy lately and it feels like we’re just spinning our wheels. Every weekend we write out our family to do list and try our hardest to cross items off the list. But the list never seems to get finished. As we cross items off, the list seems to only grow.

My husband and I are in desperate need of a vacation, but I just don’t see it happening. We have too much going on and not enough resources to pull it off. Sometimes I light tropical candles and close my eyes, imagining that I’m on a beach somewhere. It relaxes me, for about five minutes. I feel like we need to recharge. Maybe then we could really refocus and accomplish something.

Honestly, most days I feel pretty defeated by life. And that really bothers me. I don’t believe that life is a game that you either win or lose at. Life is to be lived. But I definitely don’t feel like we’re living right now. I feel like we’re barely staying afloat.

I know that in reality, we are very lucky. We have a comfortable home with a strong roof over our heads. I get to stay at home with our son who is an enthusiastic joy to be around. And my husband and I are very much in love. Despite the curve balls that we’ve been thrown, we’re really three for three. We are blessed. In the end, that’s really all that matters. I just wish we could slow down a little bit to relax and enjoy our family. But the to do list keeps growing, and I don’t suppose it will ever stop. Because that is the type of society we live in. There’s always another goal to reach for. Always another step up the ladder. There doesn’t seem to be a finish line.

So, do yourselves a favor. Take five minutes out of your busy day to send someone you love a message of appreciation. Then take another five minutes to full enjoy and reflect on the next sip you take or the next bite you eat. If you have children, read an extra story tonight. Take the time now because you can never get it back once it’s gone. 

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